It's as if my true self is buried so deeply within, underneath the walls I put up. I can feel myself retreating further and further into myself, barely surfacing anymore. Entire chunks of my day play out, but I feel so far away, as if I'm watching from a vast distance, outside my body, somehow.

I'm trying to forget, but sometimes it gets too difficult and it just leaves me broken and all I want is for things to go back the way they were